Dog sitting and so much more.

This past week i have been dog sitting these two puppies right here. They are my brother doggies.  the one in the front is boomer, and the one in the back is faith. I Love these lil doggies sooo much. i have had a good week with them, they are good doggies for the most part, but when you are not feeling well at all, well lets just say- its harder. but i guess thats what it will be like if children were involed. you couldnt really just put them somewhere so you can sleep.

I am homesick though. i miss my kitties sooo much. soooo much. and my bed. and my apartment.

next week i am spending the week and going through EVERYTHING. every inch of the apartment we will be going through.  I am making three boxes- keep, throw away, yard sale. i am going to see if my upstairs neighbor would want to have a yard sale with me. Fall is coming and i am ready to clean out. and start fresh.

I am soo exicted. See tomorrow i am pretty much having a girls day with an old and VERY VERY good friend. She really is the only friend outside of AA that i can fully say i trust. she pretty much there whenever i need to vent or reach out to. its crazy, i been feeling pretty alone lately when it comes to friendships. i feel like i have nothing. Since me and my EX best friend ended our friendship, its really made me second guess friendships. she was my BEST FRIEND right? you would have throught she would have been there for me... but apparently not. i havent have a real best friend since 2006, and i feel like i messed that one up.. i just MISS having a true best friend that i pretty much do everything with.. that i can call up at 2am and cry too.

Dont you wish sometimes you can hit rewind and go back to a place and change something? just one thing? what would that one thing be? for me??? it would be to never push the ONE friend that was there for me away. to not listen to what everyone had to say..but i cant go back, i cant hit rewind- All i have left is the the present and the future to focus on.